Fantasia Admits on ‘GMA’ Overdose Wasn’t an Accident

by | August 24, 2010 at 11:42 AM | American Idol, Good Morning America, TV News

Fantasia Barrino (AP Photo/Jeff Christensen)

Fantasia Barrino (AP Photo/Jeff Christensen)

American Idol‘ winner Fantasia Barrino says she knew exactly what she was doing when she tried to overdose on aspirin on Aug. 9.

She discussed the suicide attempt on ‘Good Morning America‘ with Robin Roberts, saying that she’s now feeling better thanks to the support of caring hospital staff and a life coach.

“I think I was just overloaded with everything, with carrying six years of so much,” Barrino said on ‘GMA’. “I always take a licking and keep on ticking … it just became heavy for me to the point that I just wanted to be away from the noise.”

In a clip from her VH1 ‘Behind the Music‘ special airing tonight at 9p.m. Barrino says: “I knew exactly what I was doing, you can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.”

Stress of dealing with her family, her father and “men and their (bleep)” along with troubles with her career and past management were overwhelming. “There’s so much that people don’t understand. They just see the glitz and the glamour, and they feel like life is so perfect, but we’re human and we go through things,” Barrino told Roberts.

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The suicide attempt came on the same day Barrino learned that Paula Cook, wife of Antwuan Cook, was accusing her of an affair with her husband and had named her in a complaint seeking alimony, child support and the family house and car.

Barrino laughed to Roberts when she said the attempt wasn’t just because of Cook. “I think everybody feels like I tried to harm myself over a man, but you know I’ve been in a lot of bad relationships,” Barrino said. “I think that had somewhat to do with it because it was so heavy, it was brand new information, I was already going through so much. But I think it was just six years of everything, of me holding all that stuff on the inside and not letting it out … I got very, very tired.”

Barrino credited the hospital staff, in particular a nurse named Melanie, for treating her like a regular person instead of a celebrity and helping her get back on her feet again.

She is also working with a life coach, who she says helped prepare her to return to recording. Her new album ‘Back to Me’ is in stores today.